Never Tired of IT

1. What side of the heart do you draw first? always the left

2.Can you swim without plugging your nose? literally?

3. What kind of cell phone do you own? Nokia E65 and 5300..for now..

4. What is your blood-type? O+

5. Where would you go to live for the rest of your life if you could? Anywhere as long as my son is nearby

6. How do you feel about carrots? I eat carrots...no worries

7.How many chairs are at the dining room table? 3..but 2 are defective...lol

8. Who was the last person to text you? Mabel

9. What color are your socks? Black

10. What are your favorite colors? Black and White..and earth colors..

11. Do you have aim, yahoo, msn, etc.? Yahoo and Hotmail

12. Do you know the song Total Eclipse of the Heart? Who doesnt?

13. Do you have any pets? Just dogs, Barkley, Mickey, Max and now umbrELLA

14. Do you like flowers? Yes, but I dont grow one

15. What did you do today? Played pc games then assessed loan apps

16. Whats your zodiac sign? Leo the Lion...growl!

17. Do you wear a lot of black? Yes...to camouflage the extra curves...lol

18. Are you close to your family? Yes

19. Describe your hair? Rebonded...

20. Ever been arrested? Not wishing..

21. Have you ever had a dream that you were killed? I had to wake up before they could.

22. Have you ever cried and started laughing out of nowhere? Girls always do that..FYI

23. Do you have a tan? No, havent been to the beach in a while

24. When was the last time you went to the mall? A week ago to buy computer chair and standing mirror.

25. Are you wearing jewelry? Yep, just my stud earrings and 2 bracelets.

26. Are you a sugar freak? Not really sir!

27. Do you like orange juice? I like iced tea better..

28. What do you want to be when you grow up? Im all grown up...

29. Can you count to ten in more than one language and what language? Let me try..

30. Do you miss someone? Yes..always

31. Are you single? Since birth...

32. Have you kissed anyone in the past week? Zach, everytime...

33. What are your plans for this weekend? Go out of town with my BFF

Another SURVEY bites the dust!

Part I
1. Name. Age. Gender?
- ► ::Jubang.38.F
2. What song is playing on your friendster?
- ► :: Grey's anatomy featured songs
3. Why?
- ► :: I like 'em
4. What describes your relationship situation?
- ► :: with who?
5. Where were you three hours ago?
- ► :: my office, where else?
6. What was the last movie you saw?
- ► :: A Very Special Love - last monday
7. What was the last food you ate?
- ► :: rice, sausage and beef patties
8. Last surprise?
- ► :: hmmm...i get lots of surprises from different people
9. Who was your last conversation with?
- ► :: Pinky
10.Ever been out without underwear on?
- ► :: hmmmm....
11.Color of your shirt now?
- ► :: olive green..not a shirt but a blouse ( uniform)
12.What is your middle name?
- ► what do u care?
13.Ever been to the beach at night?
- ► :: a lot of times, esp. when i was a lot younger
14.Are you a bad influence?
- ► :: i hope not
15.What was the last argument you had about?
- ► :: with who? may i ask?
16.Rather have your name or your siblings name?
- ► :: my name is perfectly fine
17.Do you love someone right now?
- ► :: yes...I love Zach to the moon and back...
18.Do they love you back?
- ► :: sure manure!
19.Favorite colors?
- ► :: white, black...earth colors
20.Ever held a baby?
- ► :: of course!
21.what song are you listening right now?
- ► :: none22.Wear glasses?
- ► :: sometimes, for vanity
23.Last thing someone bought for you?
- ► :: cake
24.Does your best friend have a friendster?
- ► :: i have lots of best friends..and yeah, they do..
25.Whose page did you visit last?
- ► my page..
27.Next event you're going to?
- ► :: funeral..is that an event?
28.Do you have one or more Britney Spears CDs?
- :: eiwwww!
29.Best and worse event you've ever been to?
- ► :: last trip to Manila and Cebu...because of cancelled flights, cancelled appointments..
30.Emo or Scene?
- ► :: elaborate more pls...
31.Do you sing in the car?
- ► :: anywhere...
32.Do you ever sing in the shower?
- ► :: always...
33.What track are u listening right now?
- ► :: i said none!
34.Last person to tell you they loved you?
- ► :: Zach, last night
35.Do you think they meant it?
- ► :: of course!!
Part II:
1) What is your shoutout?
Friendship is...blah..blah..blah...(Friendster)
2) Where is your cell phone?
my table
3) How many comments do you have?
Here? maybe 5. in friendster? a lot
4) What's your current relationship status?
Happily SINGLE
5) are you happy today?
not really, frustrated at work..
6) Who cut and pasted this first?
Got this from Gera
7) Someone with the same birthday as you?
Yeah, my friend just gave birth to a baby boy this year...Aug1...
8) Are you mean?
Hmmmm...whatcha think?
9) Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
At videoke bar, small audience only..
10) Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
I am a celebrity in my own right!!! (lol)
11) Current song you're listening to?
None
12) Is your birthday on a holiday?
Nah, but it is to me...
13) Have you ever been rushed to the emergency room?
Never..
14) Person who texted you?
A suitor..
15) Talk on the phone
Colleague..Kristine
16) Hugged.
Zach
17) Person you text messaged
Client
18) Last song you heard?
Local version of Low
19) What are you doing right now?
Typing my answers, what else?
20) Tonight.
Cook dinner, tutor Zach..maybe more later..
21) Wearing...
My office uniform
22) What did you have for lunch?
Still early for lunch my dear...
23) Got any plans?
Mail bday card to my sis, then watch movie later here on pc..
24) Dislikes about tomorrow.
I always welcome with enthusiasm another day to my life..
25) Do you have to work?
I Have to..
CURRENTLY:
26) Thinking about someone.
Yes, what to tell my boss and the other people at head office..
27) Missing someone.
Hmmm..let me think...
28) Current mood.
Frustrated, hurt!
29) Wanting.to sleep..
30) Are you listening to music?
nope
31) hungry?
nope
32) What were you doing at noon today?
gonna watch the dvd we rented after this..
33) Has anyone ever sang or played music for you personally?
Yes...
34) Ever wanted to be a teacher?
Yep, when i was a kid..
35) Forgive people?
I always do...after sometime..
37) What do your cousins call you?
Jubang
38) Has anyone ever told you they like you?
Of course...
39. Name one cute celebrity..
ME? (lol)
40) Who do you like to spend your days with?
Zach, my friends, my family....
41) Favorite ice-cream flavor?
My all tiem fave- double dutch
Part III
Do you sleep in your bra?
♥ never
Do you enjoy other people's drama?
♥ it drains me sometimes...
Does your friendster password have to do with a boy?
♥ how did u know???
Are you a girly girl?
♥ not really...
Where is the weirdest place you have slept?
♥ cant remember if i did sleep in a weird place for now? let me get back to that later...
Do you call anybody by their last name?
♥ sometimes....my clients...
How many guys will read this just because it says Lady Survey?
♥ i hav no freakin' idea
Do you wear makeup?
♥ yes.light make up
Ever cried at a movie theater?
♥ oh yeah..
Can you put on mascara without opening your mouth?
♥ i dont wear one
Have you ever been called a bad influence?
♥ hmmm...once i think...
THIS OR THAT:
Heels or flats?
♥ i prefer flats, but had to wear heels at work
SLacks or leggings?
♥ definitely slacks!
hoodies or jackets
♥ depends on my mood...
Heels or sneakers
♥ got to be sneakers...
Straight or curly hair?
♥ straight
Hoops or dangling earrings?
♥ studs...
Do you prefer light or dark haired guys?
♥ does it matter?
Do you have a best friend?
♥ a lot!
Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
♥ yes...but just thinking ok?
Do you like youR life?
♥ for me yes...but for zach, i want more...
Ever walked into the guy's bathroom?
♥ public or private? hahaha
Have you ever jumped in the pool with your clothes on?
♥ is swimwear not clothes?
Have you ever slapped a boy in the face?
♥ never...i am not for physical fights...
Have you ever not been able to get someone off of your mind?
♥ painfully..yes...
Ever have a good feeling about something?
♥ yes...
Do you ever wish you were famous?
♥ Im already famous...lol
Well-educated or Dropout?
♥ college degree...
Contacts or Glasses?
♥ my vision is 20/20
Funny or Serious?
♥ Im always funny...but so serious with work..
Romantic or Daredevil?
♥ BOTH...hahaha
Cute or Hot?
♥ used to be HOT, but now id settle being CUTE...
Good Dancer or Good Singer?
♥ trying hard dancer and frustrated singer...
Smoker or Non-smoker?
♥ Smoker...
Motorcycle or Has a Sports car?
♥ i dont drive man...!

My Birthday cake

Happy Birthday TO ME!

38 years = Blessings

My birthday is coming so soooooon…and Im a year older again…OUCH! But Im so BLESSED, so why complain? I have so many friends around me that even if I don’t get to see most of them often, I know in their hearts, they care for me…So, let me have this chance to thank those people who have been my inspiration all through these years…( this is in random ok?)

1. Faye ( since 2002)– She knows what I need…she helps me get through it all, and eventhough she’s already in Canada now, she has still proven to be my bestfriend…keep the $$$ coming…hehehe
2. Angie (since 2002)– We argue a lot, over a lot of things…and we insult each other a lot, tease each other no end, but Im strong in this little island of Dumaguete because of her..
3. YL family, Jumawan sisters, Lyssa Pastor, Ate Nena, Kuya Noel, Yasi brothers and the rest (since 1984)– they have molded solid my faith, we’ve learned together the word of God in style…I have my values and convictions firm because of them…
4. Lifeline friends (since 2002)– Grace, Gerard, Hannah, Arn arn, Gilbert, Myla, Pitchina, Kelly, Coreen, Andy, Roma, Yenyen and the rest – you were my first set of friends here…you made my life easier
5. Radio people (since 1991)– Macoy, Aimee, Candice, Alberca sisters, Yenyen, Baktoy, 523, 562, 602, 515 group – those years that I was fleeting, you were there to cheer me up…
6. STC ’86 (since 1982)– I have not seen most of them for over 20 years now, yet the fun we had in high school lasts a lifetime…I wish them all the luck..
7. Chacha and Cecile (since 1986)– 2 of my batchmates who were closest to me – both of them so beautiful, so charming, so much appreciated until now. I wont forget you, and all the beautiful memories I had with you. Hoping to see you soon.
8. Pinky, Kirk, Abe, Danny, Leny, Regine, Lalay, Gemma (since 2005)– I can call on them when I need things done fast…and they are loyal too.
9. ALFA family (since 2005)– you are my family now, thanks for believing in me. They are not only my colleagues and bosses, but my friends too..esp mention to Maya, Beth, Ms. AZG, Derek, Nice, Ms. Juliet, Ms. Belen, Ms. Hermie, Sir Mike, Sir Johnny, Karl, Sonny, Ms. Geney, Sir Gilbert, Ruby and the other BSAs Ive met thru this company..
10. USC friends (since 1986)– Rachel, Mayette, Nanath, Juvy, Kim, Chona, Ledge people, Canteen people, basketball people, ABC, Bukid – My college life was the best life next to highschool because of these people..
11. Bulacan people (since forever)– my friends and relatives there…I enjoyed every vacation I spent with you guys
12. SLI (since 1994)– Joyce, Tata, Shirlene, Dan, Wilbec, Ingrid, Suzette, Jill, Phoebe, Windy, Ichu, Suzette, Janet, Marcia, Mamang, Abegail, Mina, Rina, Toni, Philip, Sir Rey, Gary, Rolly, the Tatays, officers, sanitary aids, messmen, the rest of the crew – this was my best job ever…fun, fun, fun!
13. Basyong, Jerome, Philip ( one after the other, I guess)– the 3 guys I have loved….thanks for the memories..
14. My sisters – they are strong women, we can triumph every trial, we can survive any tragedy, we are one in times of tears and joy.
15. Dra. Go (since 1992)– you know I care for you, you just have to dig deeper in your heart.
16. Conching, Linli, Nora, Judyville neighbors (since 2006)– thanks for being there when I need help for my house, and for inviting me to your houses when I have nothing to eat…lol
17. Sir Jonathan (since 1994)– my former boss and still my friend., for 14 years now
18. Kristine (since 2005)– thanks for laughing at my jokes mam, and for listening when I need to vent out my frustrations about our work.
19. Flores family (since 1992)– they have my respect, I know they consider me part of the family and I really appreciate that.
20. Boyet and Badong – my 2 brothers, I care for them, I hope they care for themselves.
21. My nieces and nephews – they make me appreciate my father the more…I love them all.
22. The friends I met thru work, vacation, night outs – the other group in bulacan like reymand, jeoff, etc…it was great going out of towns with you…
23. Bill – you always have that soft spot for me, and I thank you for always understanding me my friend.
24. Garrett – you just know what to say to me that can make me giggle. You have to be good and make good in your life because you are so talented and so intelligent. Don’t waste it.
25. Ken, Gary, Mark – wherever you are now, I wish you’ll find your true loves…my web friends
26. My shortlived romances – Dodo, Tonerette, Lou, the others I have forgotten the names ( bad jubang!) – thanks for the sweet kisses…
27. Jake - who loved my son so true, and who was loved by so many. May your soul rest in peace.
28. Baseline boys – Allan and the Climaco brothers, Randy, Dodoy, Mutuc..etc.. – the highlight of my teenlife was with them….life with them was always free…free disco, free food, free ride…lol
29. Roxanne – how could I forget our sleep overs at the station you worked for before? You were a great friend and until now, you are still one.
30. Len-len – Shes my sticker mate. My bestfriend in YL, my sister in faith.
31. Timmy and Nathan – my buddies in YL, the reason I enjoyed every camp and every club meetings…they keep my feet on the gound all the time.
32. Yman and Ping – my best friends, my red Horse buddies…Thanks for always making me laugh.
33. Marilyn – my very best friend in SLI, she has put up a lot because of me…and I really love her for that…
34. Nana Juling, Ate Azon, Mamang Peping – they have kept me under their care when I was schooling in Manila…thanks for all your caring hands..
35. Johannes, Mabel, Jovicar – new friends that as early as now are already appreciated.
36. My mom – who has gone thru a lot of pain and worry because of her children. Mom, we are all grown up, you don’t have to do that anymore…
37. My father – my greatest hero, I am what I am today because of what he taught me. Be nice to your fellowman, be kind, be generous, be helpful…the reward is in heaven…wait for me there Dad
38. And lastly, my son Zach – he has never fallen short of love for me, as we always say to each other, we love each other to the moon and back…

These people are my greatest treasures, and the best reasons that I am thankful for my 38 years of existence….because without them, life would be very scary and incredibly boring. I love you guys!

To HELL with JERKS!

Until recently, I had a very close sidekick friend that I love. We spent a ton of time together doing all sorts of things – golf ( as in gulp! gulp! gulp!, over GSM and david cook and Jason mraz songs) job hunting, going on a trip together ( to Cebu, 2x). Jerk was one of the first people I go to when Im down and sad and was one of the first people to see the smile on my face, too. He is a lot younger than I am, just half of my age…and he is GAY!

About 2 years ago, he showed up to my office and applied for work. Since we didn’t need any additional manpower at work, I hired him to nanny my kid and my 2 nieces who were vacationing at that time. He spent the entire summer with me helping around the house. Aside from contributing much in the upkeep of m house, he became my confidante. He became an extension of my family that whatever he goes through, I get affected too. So the friendship was developed…

Unsurprisingly, over the last year, our friendship has gone through a lot. Mostly, we would brainstorm to find ways to put him to school permanently…and in those times, I have never been short in helping him out in financial matters. But eventhough we are that close, I still uphold my principles over money. If you owe me, you must pay me even if that’s a single cent only…but if I give money even if that’s 1M ( as if I can afford, figure of speech only darling!) that’s a gift I will NEVER ask back.

At first, this really upset me, and for a time I made a concerted effort to understand him. But I found that my perspective had changed a lot over the past several months – or should I say that familiarity already bred contempt on my side. It was ok for me that he borrows things from me, and that is usually the case when he sleeps over my house. But recently, I have noticed that he had borrowed lots and not returning them. Or sometimes he would get my stuff without telling me, I will just find out about it when I come looking for it. It bothered me a lot. Aside from not paying back the money he owes me ( well, he did pay me now….after I raised HELL!) he never made an effort to return my stuff when I needed them. ( again, he already returned them….and again after I raised WWIII)

The sad part was, when returned my stuff ( how about my shades jerk? And the towel? And the….should I name them all???) including the gifts I gave him as tokens of my friendship…. the bling blings I bought when I traveled and specifically bought it for him…yes, he returned them…so what should I think about it? Is it a sign of severing complete ties with me? I thought so! And that hurt me a lot! I only asked for things that he borrowed---the money and some stuff, but NEVER the gifts!!! I haven’t heard from Jerk since.

What did I realize? I used to have a friend, now HE IS GONE….and I want it to remain that way. I will not go after you, nor the friendship that you just wasted….Even more, a real friendship will survive any such change in philosophy. But when you returned those stuff I didn’t ask, I will let the friendship die and fade with it…
Im not worried about you ending the friendship because you’ve made choices to improve your life, ask yourself if the people around you now are your real friends. Ask yourself if they will come up to you the minute you need them. ASK YOURSELF, because YOU CANT ASK ME ANYMORE!

Break Ups

You cannot finish the book of life,
without closing it's chapters.

If you want to go on...
then you have to leave the past
as you turn the pages.(Pravs World)
Break ups


Ending a relationship is not easy – especially if it’s not your choice. Misery replaces all good memories once the relationship ends, because, at the very least, you have lost the emotional investment you made in that relationship. All feelings of failure, hopelessness, loss, despair, and desperation creeps their way in. In most cases, the length of the relationship compounds the pain of loss – a break up after half a lifetime together can seem like the end of the world. It feels like a part of you has been taken away, the eerie feeling of having one limb severed, or things that seem too normal may now be very difficult like shopping, watching movies or eating out because part of those routines are part of the memories with the ex-partner…Sigh!


Whatever the reason for a breakup, coping can be a challenge, because even a disappointing relationship starts out with an emotional investment. Serious relationships begin on a high note of excitement and hope for the future. Couples invest time, energy, plans, dreams and hope for the future in love relationships. When these relationships fail, profound disappointment is experienced.


Every loss is always painful, especially lost relationships over death, over misunderstandings, over distance…but life is designed and molded from a web of uncertainty…Life is already difficult than it should be, what more with relationships when you have to make both wavelengths of emotions and thinking meet at certain level…


There’s no such thing as right way of coping but there are some helpful tips…and overtime, the pain just go away....memories fade and grief subsides..


For whatever its worth, I would still like to take the challenge of loving and losing than not feel it at all…so BRING IT ON!

Friends...for better or for worse

With Anet, since 1992


With Kristine, since 2005


With Rachel, since 1986