Me, Myself And I.: 05/01/2008

Tuesday, May 20, 2008

In The Sun

I picture you in the sun wondering what went wrong
And falling down on your knees asking for sympathy
And being caught in between all you wish for and all you've seen
And trying to find anything you can feel that you can believe in

May God’s love be with you
Always
May God’s love be with you

I know I would apologize if I could see in your eyes
‘Cause when you showed me myself I became someone else
But I was caught in between all you wish for and all you need
I picture you fast asleep
A nightmare comes
You can’t keep awake

May God’s love be with you
Always
May God’s love be with you

‘Cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
You

I don’t know anymore
What it’s for
I’m not even sure
If there is anyone who is in the sun
Will you help me to understand
‘Cause I been caught in between all you wish for and all you need
Maybe you’re not even sure what it’s for
Any more than me

May God’s love be with you
Always
May God’s love be with you

‘Cause if I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
If I find
If I find my own way
How much will I find
You

Coldplay feat. Michael Stipe

Monday, May 19, 2008

Sunday, May 18, 2008

questions, questions

1. How old will you be in 3 birthdays?
~~ 40...life begins then...

2. Do you think you'll be married by then?
~~ awwww!

3. What do you look forward to most in the next 3 months?
~~ travel, new job maybe...

4. Who was the last person you called,and who called you last?
~~ zach and zach

5. Have you ever played a team sport?
~~ yeah...in high school

6. Who was the last person to text you?
~~ yahoo messenger: no friends online

7. What were you doing at midnight last night?
~~ SNORING!

8. What happened at 11:00 a.m. today?
~~ SNORING still!

9. what do you feel right now?
~~ sleepy, stuffy nose!

10. If you could be anywhere right now, where would it be?
~~ hmmm...all places...

11. Do you prefer shoes, socks, or bare feet?
~~ socks....and the airconditioning unit running...

12. Are you a social person?
~~ well, ask the people around me

13. What was the last thing you drank?
~~ gsm with pineapple orange

14. Favorite ice cream?
~~ double dutch

15. What is your favorite dessert?
~~ a lot!

16. What’s your favorite color?
~~ earth colors...

17. What network are you? smart or globe?
~~ globe and sun

18. Do you like coffee?
~~ learned to love it since a year ago...

19. How many glasses of water a day do you drink on average?
~~ i will count next time ok?

20. What do you drink in the morning?
~~ cold water

21. Would you rather kiss someone with or without a tongue ring?
~~ hmmm, to kiss someone with a tongue ring would be interesting...

22. Do you sleep on a certain side of the bed?
~~ in the middle...alone...

23. Do you know how to play poker?
~~ YES...

24. What's so good about Fridays?
~~ it's PARTY time!

25. Any plans for this week?
~~ get better, im down with cough and colds!

26. How big is your TV?
~~ 15" only...huhuhu

27. Ever stolen a street sign?
~~ no, but i kicked one decades ago...lol

28. Do you keep a piggy bank?
~~ no, i dont count my money...REALLY!

29. Have you ever been in an ambulance?
~~ no, and i hope not anytime soon dear!

30. Do you prefer an ocean or a pool?
~~ ocean at sunset

31. Do you prefer a window seat or an aisle seat?
~~ window seat always...

32. Do you know how to drive a stick shift?
~~ I WISH!

33. What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
~~ just about anything as long as it makes me happy...

34. Do you wear any jewelry 24/7?
~~ just my earrings...

35. Can you roll your tongue?
~~ i think so..

36. What is the main ring tone on your phone?
~~ nothing fancy...

37. Do you still have clothes from when you were little?
~~ awww...i dont keep old old old old clothes...

38. Do you shut off the water when you brush your teeth?
~~ yes, usually...

39. Do you like someone right now?
~~ maybe, not sure...

40. Where are your best friends?
~~ they are just somewhere out there...and i hope they are doing good...

(repost from gera g)

Monday, May 12, 2008

FLIPPING OUT ON SATURDAY AFTERNOON: the gsm pineapple side-effects

Mixed at 445pm

Started at 5pm

Alcohol starts kicking in...

Dinner break 7pm

Second round 8pm

Are we having FUN yet?

Side effects started 9pm

You will never know for certain what is next to come..

When Being DEMURE and PROPER are two alien words...

Yes, gimme more, gimme more!

We NEVER learned our LESSONs, huh?

Another Mom like ME!

I was alone yesterday for Mother’s Day celebration…hmmm…actually, I don’t celebrate the occasion….i just greeted myself and all other mothers I know in this world…but nevertheless, I was greeted also by many, it just that I was alone savoring the glorious day specifically dedicated to mothers like me.

The day started with me waking up my son Zak coz his dad was about to pick him up for Sunday service…then I also prepared sandwiches for my niece who was going home same day. When they were all gone, the power went out along with my water. ( that’s usually the case on Sundays)…so first half of the day was spent fanning myself and smoking…(YES, im back to smoking….bad girl!) Anyways, I couldn’t stand the heat inside so I went out to my garage to settle myself there with my apple tea that was still iced inside its bottle…there, my doggie umbrELLA as if on cue, rested her head on my lap as if to tell me “Hey, you aren’t totally alone my dear master, IM HERE”…There I realized that ELLA needs my greeting too being a mother like me…You see, the past owner of ELLA sold all her puppies for money….then she was left alone by her former owner most of the time, that’s why she is with me now ( I sort of revoked all her owners rights of her)…ELLA is a great help to me when in comes to securing my house…..after that incident when my house was ransacked twice early January ( that was when I left ELLA to my neighbor because I went on a trip)…I never trusted my house sitting alone again…so everytime Im on a trip, ELLA would be there barking at all times for any noise or sound she hears….really good girl! But I noticed too that if someone dared to pet her, she acted very friendly too, so I wonder if the robbers and thieves already petted her??? Hmmm, ELLA is never a guard dog by nature anyway, she is a RETRIEVER, so they are very friendly. She dances with joy when I come home, she acts this gesture as if bowing to me (but I asked a friend later on and he told me that the dog was just stretching ) stretching her body to the fullest and bowing down her head, but whatever it is, I still regard it as her respect to me like saying “Good evening Jubang, welcome home” coz she does that everytime I enter my gate….everytime I came home from work…she often put her head on my knees and stare longingly into my eyes. Or sometimes, she creeps inside the house and just lie down there wherever I may be…when im doing my laundry which I do in the garage, she jumps to me as if to tell me “hey, lets play.” Ah, Im guilty to some degree, coz the love and loyalty that she so richly deserve but so rarely receive is my doing. I got her last November and during those times Im alone, shes just outside of my room, giving me that look that says “ IM HERE, don’t worry”…so for Mother’s Day, I decided to give her a BIG TREAT…..I cooked a meal for her, with rice, ground meat with beans, and corned beef loaf which was Zak’s fave too…so that day ( and by the way, power came on a few minutes after 1pm) I was celebrating the day with another mother…in the person of ELLA. Happy Mother’s Day, sweet umbrELLA…Cheers!

Friday, May 9, 2008

An Open Letter to Ester

Dear Mom,

I know I cant thank you enough for all you have done in my life...and to our family.

I never heard a single complaint from you about the pains of raising your 8 children, even if we were born just a year or so apart from each other. I couldnt imagine how hard life was then for you being a very young wife and a mother with a fast growing kids. In spite of all this and more, you nurtured us and cared for us like you always do up until now even if you are already 65 years old. Who am I to question your value of being a mother, a homemaker and a wife when you bore 8 children, all healthy, all alive, all grown up now? Our constant cry for your motherly love must have been very painful and stressful especially if those 8 kids needed it at the same time. Did you mention that our aunts helped you then? Well, aunts and nannies are terrific caretakers, but Im sure it was your hugs and kisses that we always wanted to have. You are always so willing to help anyone at any given time, as long as you know that they are in need of something, you are always so willing to help, be it a matter of finances, time or service...you are just so generous of yourself. And I guess thats one of the many good traits I got from you mom. Its your nature to care and think of others before thy own self. Thats so commendable Mom, and I salute you for that.

As I was growing up, I knew I have hurt you along the way. My constant partying, my night-outs with friends without your approval must have caused you a lot of grief. There are still so many stupid things I did, too many to list down here, but mom, I want you to know that I didnt do it to spite you nor to disgrace you, so Im sincerely sorry if I made you feel that way. Now that Im a mother myself, you have extended your love to my son as well, and thats another thing I want to thank you for. I couldnt forget that time you sneaked out a toy from the box intended for another grandkid of yours, and gave it to Zak instead as your Xmas gift. (Violent reactions from siblings...coming up!!!) Zak still has that HotWheels mom, he calls it his super hotwheels talking car.

When I was still a sickly young kid, you were more worried than any other person, especially when the pain in my legs left me sleepless at nights. You are still the person that cries most when something happens to us. Remember that time when you were in the US and I called you early dawn? You were alert enough even in your sleep to listen to us, the only fiasco then was while you were trying to calm me down, you thought it was another kid of yours...geez mom, thats the problem attached to having lots of kids, you cant tell who's who...but kidding aside, I do regret having called you that day, if only for the reason that I have made you worry about me...so again sorry about that.

I have managed to live on my own beacause I didnt want to burden you with the motherly responsibilities that Im sure you would always assume even as grown up as I am now. You always made your house available to us, always put food on the table....even if you still have to buy medicines for your never ending body pains. You even want to cut short your vacation so that you can start sewing the uniforms of your grandkids...Mom, you mean to all of us more than you will ever know.

I want you to know that it breaks my heart everytime you complain of something, especially when all I could do is just listen to your sobs. You are a very strong woman mom, so strrong that when we are weak, we only think of you and then our strength is regained.

Yes, you are truly one caring mom. You have set by example the meaning to the words: humility, hospitality, selfless love, sacrifice and fairness. You are like a hen, covered us with your feathers so that we dont fall prey to the hungry eagles.

What else can we ask from you mom, when you have given more than what you should?
Think about yourself, think of what makes you truly happy. Think of the good memories, and keep them in your heart. Beacause in our hearts, you will always be there forever.

I love you so much mom. Thanks a million lots! Happy Mother's Day!

Jubang and Zach

Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Jamaican Gimlet Effect

My niece arrived last Saturday and since her entrance tests ( for 4th year h.s. entry) started Monday yet, we had two days to just laze around. So on her fist night, I treated her and Kirk to a Jamaican Gimlet...( gin plus jamaican lime juice)..Although I used to drink hard when I was younger ( OUCH!)...I couldnt tolerate it now than I used to, but it was what my niece liked, so I succomb to their wishes. I can take the gin, but the lime I couldnt. It tasted sweet yet tangy yet bittery ( is there such a word???)..I really couldnt come up with a perfect word to describe it, but I hated it period! Anyway, we finished one bottle of gin and an equal amount of lime...at the end, I have requested for my ever reliable Red Horse beer...which Kirk and I shared. The night went one with ITunes music playing and interrogating my niece on her lovelife ( very nosy aunt huh???)...and of course, I am a camwhore, so pictures where taken left and right. I posted here pics that is obviously the images of drunk..oooopppss, wrong word...TIPSY people....and guess how many shots were taken in one night??? Go, figure!

Anyway, thinking about my niece living with me gives me mixed emotions..Im happy because I will now have constant company at my small abode...but at the same time overwhelmed with the big responsibility that is about to face me..Of course, I have to think about her safety, her schooling and her general well being once she's here...I am always worried about how I care for my son, how much more to someone who is not mine....dont you think? Hmmmm...I will take this one as another challenge...and will win it!

I have already booked my flight to Manila this end of the month...I have decided to take a break and see my friends there...I have also plans to personally hand in my resignation...I know..I know....my office's closure has been moved til end of the year..but that is not even final yet...they can shorten it or extend much longer...my problem is I already gave my word to the other company, and actually I want to take a respite so that I can think things through...I am still in delimma whether to wait for closure or transfer now and start a new career path....I love my company now, I have maintained close relationships with most of the people at Head office...and I cherish it, so its hard to let go of the memories...but on the practical side, I have to think of my growth too..and thats when my heart and mind debates constantly...I just hope that my vacation will help me..unless the Jamaican gimlet effect follows me there....hmmmm...Take care all!

Me, Myself And I.