This is IT!

I'm restless
I can hear my heart beating so fast...lub...dub..dub...dub...
Headaches are not going away anytime sooner...just getting worse..
The day is half-over....but things are half-done
Am I going through?

Yesterday was not good, what about today?
Plans are all set, but will it not go aground?
The plane is landing and going, will I see a familiar shadow?
Today is crucial, tomorrow is on trial...
Will my emotions explode from the vial?

How will I face tomorrow?
If it cant be seen from here?
Will I rise above it?
Will I face it flat on the floor?
How do I know?

Life is full of surprises
Sometimes it isn't pleasant, but sometimes it makes you gape in awe!
Will I have the latter and not the former?
Which is which?
Oh enough, I just have to brace myself and face it...
This is IT!

The Final Performance

I woke up this morning and the sun was gone

Started to look for Mr. Moon, but its nowhere in line

Im not sure if the morning has come

I want to close my eyes and just be calm


I told myself

I cant die inside yet

I am a cat, nine lives is what Im threading

My heart is racing…but my brain is diving.


Am I still dreaming?

And silently crying?

I need to know now.

No more words can make me say wow!


But take your time….take it slow

Break your silence…spit it blow by blow

This is your time, make it clear

Coz I don’t want to shed one more tear.


Let the show begin tonight

Let the drama take its final flight.

The bell already rang.

The songs have been sung.


I want to lie down my bed again

And just dream of what might have been

Where everything is happy.

Where there’s you and me.


So please say goodbye now.

And let’s take our final bow.

No more drama, dont do another encore.

And Give this performance the real score!

My PIG-langga...

His eyes are windows to my heart.
His hands are the bridge to my being.
His feet leads me to the right path.
His heart is as pure as the winter snow.



He is definitely my Sunshine on cold chilly nights.
His hugs keep me warm at night.
His smile is like a ray of sun.
His giggles are my inspiration.



My epitome of happiness.
The reason that I want to live.
The reason that I want to be better.
The significant other of my life, my joy, my SON!

I love you so very much my dear PIG-langga!

How Ironic

How ironic....
You had me at hello
But you left without saying goodbye
You said you love me
But you want to be hated by me

How ironic
You said you despise losing me
But it is I that is losing you
You have overpromised
But yet you underdelivered

How ironic
You have brought too much joy in my heart
But now have caused so much tears in my eyes
My friends told me Im lucky to have found you
But the same ones who told me to leave you

How ironic
You said to have faith in you
But it is you who doesnt have faith in us
I dread the day that I will learn to hate you
Yet my days are filled by still loving you.


How ironic
You said you ache for me
Yet you are with somebody other than me
I hope this pain I feel will pass me by
Because its so ironic that the more I cry a river
The more I realize I have already loved you forever....

Questions Of My Heart

What does it take to love someone?
How many times do we search before we find our true love?
How should lovers keep their feelings alive?
When does one say "I love You" and mean it?
How do we get up from a broken heart?
Where do we get strength when your source of strength failed you?
How can one make the other stay?
Is forgiveness a virtue of love?
Why is love painful at times?
Why is love so complicated?
Can one endure an unrequited love?
Is love real or only a beautiful myth?
Why is letting go so hard to do?
Why does one cheats?
Why can love that feels so right still go wrong?
Why do I still ask these questions when I already know the answers?
And....why do I love you so much??