Me, Myself And I.: Love

Showing posts with label Love. Show all posts

Sunday, August 14, 2011

Captured joy

Memories of this photo go beyond the minute of the shot. It is worth the countless times I spent daydreaming, the sacred time I spent praying for you and the time reliving it all.

I owe it to you for making me smile beyond no reason at all! Thank you Nick for the sweet memories!

Thursday, August 4, 2011

Why?

There are just so many things in life that we cant explain...one of them is our emotions. Emotions run deeply, we could cry in a minute and laugh on the next. Why?

Our emotions react to what we see and hear. When we see a cute baby smiling, we smile too. When we hear an accident on the road, we get sad. Emotions do not act on its own, but sometimes dictate our next actions. Why?

For lovestruck people, emotions could get in the way of how they view the love they have. It impedes the ability of our brain to think better. Why?

But I believe love is not just an emotion, its a decision. Love does not exist if we do not commit to stand by our emotions. When the love we feel is not guaranteed by commitment, it will fade away slowly. Why?

I met a boy whose character I cant decipher, but Im drawn to liking him. Why?
He is someone out of my standards, not even close enough. But I think of him every minute of the day. Why?
He cant offer anything nor can give commitment, but I regard every second with him as forever. Why?
His little smiles mean joy, and his touches mean care...not even one single glimpse escapes me. Why?

I should not worry that I feel what I feel now, because love is the best gift we can give to someone. It flows freely and creates a magical feeling, although sometimes, it hurts! Why?
I could not promise to let my brain win over my emotions, it is not something I can be sure of yet for now. Why is that?
Simply because I have learned to care for you and I have learned to appreciate your being. Maybe these are just emotions that is fleeting and temporary, but one thing I can assure you is that it is something intense. Now baby, don't ask me why.

Monday, April 25, 2011

Letters: Short note to Angie Regalado

Thanks OA for your never-ending support. Thanks for loving me and for taking care of me now and always....I will love and cherish you FOREVER!!!

Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Letters: A letter to my couple-friend Marky & Ann

EMO date, 2011

Dearest Handsome and Gorgeous (FEELER ra…hehehe),

I drafted a separate letter for you each but I thought it best to make one for you two as the things I wanna say really is for you as a couple. First let me congratulate you for a job well done in your relationship…..keep it stronger each day….! These are just my few wishes for you:
1. Love each other fully and with all your might, a love given away freely is the best gift you can give to each other. No amount of material thing can ever surpass that ( unless it’s a MAC PRO…hahahaha)
2. Learn to accept each other at his/her worst state. Because that’s when you can measure up how much each other can put up with the most trying times in your journey.
3. Make memories together. The more sweet times you have with each other, the more reason you would want to stay together…Trust me on this!
4. Tot continue to be the nurturing partner that you are, Marky will forever appreciate that and Marky, continue to be the supportive partner that you are, Antot will forever be grateful for that…..in short Im telling you Antot to keep the household clean including the CR, kitchen and the bed…hehehe…and Marky, what im really saying is for you to be patient with Antot’s nagging regarding the mess you do in the CR, kitchen and on the bed…hahahaha
5. Be each other’s HERO….a HERO can be just defined as someone who could laugh at your own mistakes and still give you a peck on the cheek…that’s what you should be to each other…
6. Always AGREE to DISAGREE…when one is mad, let the other one be calm….no use in clashing for petty things as this will just create cracks in your relationship..remember that if you continue to agree that there are just things you disagree about then you are on the same page in your relationship.
7. Antot, you have admitted to be insecure….this was not explained further but if you are referring to your standing in Marky’s life, DON’T BE…we your friends have witnessed the love Marky has for you…you have this MAN in your life, so no reason to be insecured….instead learn to appreciate even the small things he is doing for you…you are one lucky girl remember that!
8. Marky, Antot may be so extravagant in showing her love for you but I guess she just wanted to make sure you get the BEST of her…so don’t complain instead treasure it as those are part of the memories you both are making….you are one hell of a lucky guy, remember that.
9. Take pleasure in assuring one another your commitment….it could be in the smallest gesture of just staring at each other or just holding each other’s hand…but what really matter is the message you are sending…assurance can guarantee security…
10. Lastly, keep the friendship SOLID and celebrate everyday as if it’s the first day you fell in love with one another…..because friendship will outlast the lust and passion and the first day you felt giggles for each other may be the best reason you should stick to one another. CHEERS!!!

Love,

Jubang

Wednesday, February 2, 2011

Anatomy of an ADDICT....up close and personal

Every person at one point of their lives may be exposed to drug temptation or experimentation. There are people you know that may have experimented with drugs in the past but did not become addicted. However, there are some people that may have experimented with a certain drug one or two times and became addicted. You may be wondering why this is. I have always wondered why?

I had my share of "curiosity" with drugs. I smoked pot few times, had laugh trip, food trip and everything was just slow. I did the "poor man's cocaine", the first time i did it, it did defeat the alcohol effect til morning, made me talk more and more, made me sweat and lost my appetite. The next time I did it, it has no effect at all. I can stay all night without it, I can control my alcohol intake without it, and I am in born talkative, so its effects are normal for me. I did cough syrup, all it did was raise my hair on my nape...and slowed me down. I am telling this because I want to emphasize that even if I tried these forbidden and dangerous drugs, it did not gave me sensational feelings...I thought drugs could turn you to be the person you always aspire to be, so thinking I would be a SUPERWOMAN, i did it...but as Ive said, it failed me....I am still a SUPERWOMAN the way i am, in few other ways!!!

So what about other people? I know of someone who has been taking drugs since he was in high school. He is very dear to my heart and every time I talk to him, I try hard to read his mind on why is he so addicted to it when all he does is complain about its ill effects to him physically. He doesn't go to school anymore, the most untrustworthy in their family according to his mom, his friends are the people with questionable characters...most of his stories of friends are those in jail, killed or raped because of drugs....His life is sure going downhill. I tried hard to put sense in his mind, but because he is very young, I doubt if the things i said to him ever came across even an inch to his brain. I care for this man, though he never showed deeper interest in me, he has always been a good sight to behold. I love it when he could laugh at himself, I love making a day pass by that he could be drug free. I have realized I failed in doing so...He became too familiar with me that he could even tell straight to my face lies he could muster. And I realized I failed him too, I wanted to give him the care he couldn't get from anyone else, just so he would realize that LIFE is STILL BEAUTIFUL..that he could still mend his ways and start again...He did and stopped drugs for the same woman...He stopped because he fell in love with her and when she dumped him, he went back to his old ways. Maybe he is emotionally weak to stand firm on his ground, maybe he acts if motivated, so when the motivating factors ebbed, so went his will.

There are many different factors that play a role in drug addiction. Better understanding what these are can help us make more sense out of what we have seen or experienced oourselves. There are certain genes that may actually make someone more likely to use or abuse drugs as they grow. Biology is a very complex subject, each one of us react differently to a given situation. So the chemical/anatomical structure of a person could be one factor. Another factor is the person's environment. Someone that is around drugs most of their lives will be more likely to experiment. Just like parents who speaks French, will likely to have a family who will be speaking French their whole lives. If they also have the genes that make them more susceptible to drug abuse then they may be facing a large battle. Think about it, if you are watching someone use drugs on a daily basis then you may grow up thinking that it is normal and acceptable. Along with environmental factors, it could crop out from one person's LIFE experiences, it could be about stress and abuse. These factors may make someone more willing to drugs or alcohol as a way to hide from their problems. Mental illness or other emotional disorders can be found as factors for some people because the drugs are often used as a way to self medicate. This can be very hard to break, especially if their environment is full of drugs and they are not surrounded by positive support systems. This can be how the drug abuse starts. Then, it becomes an inappropriate coping skill and an addiction. And I think that's how it is for my dear friend, he uses drug to COPE with life..for his ineptness, for his loneliness, for his way to REACH OUT!! And I guess, nobody understood him any way he would want to be.

So how do you help someone who is an ADDICT? Would you cater to his ways and let him cope the way he knows how? Or would you put your foot down and be hard on him? Can you use tough love? Would an addict recognize the difference between genuine care or nor? Would he be able to appreciate and make it as his driving force? What if you cant tell if he is an addict or not? Who can make him stop? Would another woman he might fall in love with make miracles? How far would you go caring for an addict? Lastly, are ADDICTS capable of really loving? Think about that the next time that you encounter someone that is dealing with a drug addiction.

I'm still thinking until now....

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Happy Hearts Day everyone!!!

I received this text today: " I keep you in my heart and in my thoughts when I am alone, when I'm doing something and even when I'm sleeping...these things I promise you.......

I will always love you...