Mixed Lyrics, Mixed Emotions

I am unwritten, can't read my mind,
I'm undefined I'm just beginning,
the pen's in my hand, ending unplanned

Reaching for something in the distance
So close you can almost taste it

There's nothing good about goodbye
Just say goodbye

If I cut you down to a thing I can use,
I fear there will be nothing good left of you.

I just wanna be alone tonight
I just wanna take a little breather
Cause lately all we do is fight
And every time it cuts me deeper

The bed I'm lying in is getting colder
Wish I never would've said it's over
And I can't pretend... I won't think about you when I'm older
Cause we never really had our closure

We've been through this such a long long time
Just tryin' to kill the pain
But lovers always come and lovers always go
And no one's really sure who's lettin' go today
Walking away

Everything I know, and anywhere I go
It gets hard but it won't take away my love
And when the last one falls
When it's all said and done
It gets hard but it wont take away my love

Thank you for all you've done
Forgive all your mistakes
There's nothing I wouldn't do
To hear your voice again
Sometimes I want to call you but I know you won't be there

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my life?

I know you feel helpless now and
I know you feel alone
That's the same road, the same road that I am on

I'm alive but I'm alone,
Part of me is fighting this
But part of me is gone

Today is where my book begins
The rest is still unwritten

what about LOVE?

Million Bucks..

1 - Name something that made you frown today?
* outrageous fed ex freight charges...

2 - What were you doing at 7:00 AM?
* replying to Garrett's SMS

3 - Kiss with your eyes open or closed?
* cLosed..always..

4 - If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a mistake?
* miLLion bucks...lol

5 - Do you have a friend of the opposite sex that you can talk to 24/7?
* hmmmm...not 24/7 but i can talk to Bill anything under the sun...

6 - Is there anybody you just wish would fall off the planet?
* YEAH...Superman!
.
7- Is there anything you are looking forward to within the next few days?
* hmmm..bills to pay...(argghhh!)

8 - What were you doing 1 hour ago?
* sending Faye's stuff thru Fed Ex

9 - Do you currently have feelings for someone?
* Sigh, I think so...

10 - What was the last thing you said aloud?
* GRRRR!

11 - How many different things did you drink today?
* just water

12 - Are you ticklish?
* depends on how good you are....in finding my "no entry" zones...lol

15 - Was today a good day?
* my day started out bad, but now its ok...

16 - What are you listening to?
* Beauty and Madness - Fra Lippo Lippi

18 - Where is the last place you went?
* I said Fed Ex!!!!

20 - Who is the last person you had a deep meaningful conversation with?
* Garrett..i think...i dont know if it was deep meaningful conversation, but i conversed in a deep mood for sure!

22 - Your favorite romantic movie?
* LOTS!

23 - Have you ever played naked twister?
* can we play it now?..hahaha

24 - Is there something you will never forget?
* YES! a lot of things..a lot of experiences...a lot of people

25 - How do you feel about Valentine's day?
* corny!

26 - How is your hair?
* it's great as ever!

27- First thing you notice of the opposite sex?
* His talking skills...

28 - Who was the last person you took a picture with?
* with friends, Cebu trip.

30 - Do you wish on 11:11?
* why should I? is there something special about that time?

31 - What's on your mind?
* i wanna POO...lol

32 - Which shoe do you put on first?
*depends what i get hold of first...

33 - Favorite color(s)?
* white and black..

34 - Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with a C?
* Hmmm..lemme think!

36 - Do you have trust issues?
* when its breached..YES!

37 - Have you ever hated someone, but ended up being friends with them?
* no, when i begin to hate someone, i get numbed..so no feelings anymore...

38 - Would you kiss again the last person you kissed?
* yep...again and again...

39 - Have you ever hurt anyone when you were mad?
* physically? NO!

40 - Is it easier to forgive or forget?
* i forgive but i dont forget, makes any sense to you?

41 - Are you random?
* random what?

42 - Do you laugh a lot?
* YES!!

43- Are you happy with that?
* of course... =)

44- Do you believe in love at first sight?
* love at first BITE!!! or LUST at first sight!!! lol...

45- Do you want kids?
* I have ONE

46 - If someone liked you right now would you want them to tell you?
* elation is always a nice feeling..

47- How do you feel about being the age you are?
* OOOLLLLDDD!!! Sob...!

49- Do you believe in celebrating anniversaries?
* yep..

50- Who is the person you wish to see right now?
* Dad and Garrett...

Would You Rather

Would u rather die beautiful or live ugly?
~ live beautiful....
Would u rather have the house of ur dreams or the love of ur dreams?
~ i'd settle with house of my dreams with my love in it...
Would u rather jump of a cliff into a pit of water or jump of a skyscraper into a pit of fire?
~ OUCH!
Would u rather move to Antarctica and live with the penguins or move to the Savanna deserts and live with the kangaroo's?
~ Savanna, to hell the the roos
Would u rather get bitten by a snake or a scorpion?
~ Neither...
Would u rather have a monkey pee on u or a bird poop on u?
~ i am afraid of bird poop, might turn into stone according to Adarna!
Would you rather be blind or be deaf?
~ Blind, so i can still hear my fave music...
Would you rather lose an arm or a leg?
~ let me insure both first...
Would you rather become uglier or become stupider?
~ Geez, im stupid enough!
Would you rather be more rich or more attractive?
~ More rich..im attractive enough...lol
Would you rather be blonde or brunette?
~ hmmm...i'd settle with being brunette..
Would you rather have a third eye in the middle of your head, or a horn, in the middle of your head?
~ Can I transfer the eye at the back of my head...lol
Would you rather it be winter forever or summer forever?
~ Summer in winter time...can you make that possible?
If you could only eat one thing for the rest of your life, would you rather it be sweet or salt?
~ SWEET!@!
If you could choose a super-power, would you rather be able to fly or move objects?
~ FLY HIGH!

never ending

Has anyone ever told you that they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
• yeah...dont know if its true

Are you moody?
• nah...am the coolest!

Who was your last text message from?
• from faye

What's bothering you right now?
• my sister' dilemma

Do you delete people off of Friendster?
• yeah..some...

Do you believe that you can change for someone?
• why would i? that wouldnt be anymore...

Do you drink coffee?
• yeah...rarely

Do you get along with girls?
• of course, and faggots and lisbo..

Do you crack your knuckles?
• nah!

Do you like surprises?
• yep

Plans for this weekend?
• chill!

Have you ever been to California?
• I WISH!

Have you cried this week at all?
• nah..

Where were you at 8:00 this morning?
• taking a bath...

What is your sisters name?
•didnt i answer that in your previous survey?

What color is your hairbrush?
• i dont have one, i use big-tooth combs

Are you ticklish?
• well, if you know how to locate my delicate spots...

Are you typically a jealous person?
• not really...

Are you afraid of falling in love?
• nah...its a good feeling..

Do you know anyone that smokes pot?
• i dont care..

What’s your current mood?
• hungry!

What was the last thing you ate?
• oatmeal

Regret doing anything in the past week?
• no

Do you have a dirty mind?
. i know someone who does..lol

Have you been pressured to do anything recently?
• yep

Do you think it's OK to live with your parents as an adult?
• no, been living on my own for so long now..

Do you like your name?
• definitely..

What's your favorite number?
• 1

Do you hate any one?
• no..

Did you go to college?
• yes

What's your worst habit?
• farting...lol

Are you listening to any music?
• yes..

Do you still talk to the person you last dated?
• i still talk to someone i never dated...confusing???

Do you love someone?
• i think so..

What would you do if you found out your ex is engaged today?
•its his loss not mine dahlin..

Do you like competition?
• depends...

Would you ever stay with someone, just because you didn't want to break their heart?
• never..

Have you ever taken anyone/anything for granted?
• i think so...i may not be aware of it though..

Do you hate being alone?
• sometimes..it gets lonely you know..

Has anyone ever broken your heart?
• BIG FAT YES!@!

Last time you went swimming in a pool?
• february...south seas resort

Last time you were hugged?
• yesterday morning, before Zach left to church

Do you miss someone right now?
• yup

Is smoking one of your turn offs?
* Hell, no...coz I smoke myself

Do you like the song 'I Kissed a Girl' by Katy Perry?
* it kinda reminds me of someone...i have it in my Ipod

Do you listen to your friend's advice when they give it to you?
* well, i do appreciate it when needed..but unsolicited advice? it irritates me..

Would you rather shave your head or dye your hair bright orange?
* awww, another option pls? but id rather shave then have orange hair..

Could you last an hour without talking?
* gosh, thats hard!!!

What are you listening to right now?
* Yahoo Music - Forever by Chris Brown

When was the last time you cried?
* You have been asking me this a lot of times already, now im really gonna cry!

Do you prefer to call or text someone?
* call...im to lazy to type messages..

Have any interesting conversations lately?
* yes, Pinky's secret revealed - the biggest scoop this year!

How old are you?
* hmmm, i think im 38..

Would you rather eat 3 boxes of saltine crackers without water, or eat a live cockroach?
* why dont u just shoot me in the head?

The person you loved asked if it would be okay for them to marry you and another person, what would you say?
* for how much??? lol

Do you cry a lot?
* when watching movies, i am!

Are you truly happy right now or putting on a show?
* im always HAPPY no matter what is happening around me!

If you love someone would you tell them?
* OF COURSE and Always!

If you could cuddle with anyone right now who would you pick?
* my PIG-langga, ZACH!

Plans for tomorrow?
* buy groceries maybe..

Would you get married if you could right now?
* no thanks!

Are you there for the friends?
* always available..

What is your favorite thing to spend money on?
* i do spend a lot for friends...

Do you believe that what goes around comes around?
* all the time!

Is there any emotion you're trying to avoid right now?
* huh? hmmm, let me ask myself again!

When was the last time you had Starbucks?
* in Manila...last month

Last reason someone called you a dumbass?
* nobody ever said that to me to my face..

How many people do you know with your name?
* a lot..

What's something you really want right now, be honest!
* YOU! Get here and im gonna smack your face for being so nosey!

Do you plan out your day before it begins?
* yes, i like to be organized...

What was your first thought when you woke up this morning?
* is somebody cooking breakfast already?

How's your heart?
* I'ts still pumping, Thanks God!

Do you wet the toothbrush before the toothpaste?
* Yep, i guess everybody does..

Did someone make you mad today?
* no

When is your birthday?
* 1st of August - roar!

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
* Taking a bath

What were you doing 30 minutes ago?
* Turned on my office pc..

How do you feel about the person who texted you last?
* I miss her - Faye.

What is your current mood?
* Bored!

15 minutes

The longest survey you'll ever fill out! Do the world a favor: fill it out and post it for all your friends. Do this because the person who filled it out before you didn't sit here for ages for nothing. Answer all the questions honestly.

Starting time:
• 11:45 am
Name:
• jubang
Sister/s:
• 5 ( evangeline, josephine, emer, marianne, janet
brother/s:
• 2 ( ireneo, joey)
Shoe size:
• 8 1/2
What are you wearing right now?
• uniform
Where do you live?
• dumaguete
Favorite Numbers:
• 1
Favorite Drinks:
• water, iced tea
Favorite Months:
• august ( my birthmonth)
Favorite Breakfast:
• spam, bacon, sausage
***********Have You Ever***********
Been on a plane:
• yes
Been in a bath tub:
• yes
Swam in the ocean:
• beach
Fallen asleep in school:
• nope, but in moviehouse once..
Broken someone's heart:
• i think i did....
Fell off your chair:
• yep, twice i guess
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call:
• yes....GRRRR!
Saved e-mails:
• some of them
***********What is************
Your room like:
• too small for me
What's right beside you?
• phone and printer
What is the last thing you ate?
• native sausage and dried fish
-------------Ever Had-------------
Chicken pox:
• in college
Sore throat:
• yes, a lot
Stitches:
• none that i know of
Broken nose:
• nope, thank heavens!
-----------Do You-----------
Believe in love at first sight?
• lust at first sight..lol
Like picnics:?
• yep, with friends...
----------Who----------
Who was the last person you danced with?
• Kirk and Jovicar
Who last made you smile?
• its not a who but a what....a poem that i read...
Who did you last yell at?
• geez, KIRK..
----------Final Questions-------------
What are you listening to right now?
• the fan...
What did you do today?
• re-filing, chatted with jonathan, opened friendster
Hate someone in your family?
• no...but disappointed with some
Diamond or pearl?
• diamonds are girls' bestfriend...
Are you the Eldest?
• no, youngest in girls
Indoors or outdoors?
• both
-------Today did you-----------
1. Talk to someone you like?
• today? yes...
2. Kiss anyone?
• yes
3. Get sick?
• i get bad cough from time to time
5. Talked to an ex:
• yes
6. Miss someone:
• always
----------Last person who----------
7. You talked to on the phone?
• nero q.
----------Random--------------
21. Have a crush on someone:?
• yes..

22. What books are you reading right now?
• motherhood by erma bombeck
23. Best feeling in the world:
• love
24. Future kids names?
• cody ( according to zach)
25. Do you Sleep with stuffed animals?
• no, used to have mr. bean teddy bear but we put it out already
26. What's under your bed?
• dust...lol
28. Favorite locations:
• manila and cebu
29. Danced a slow dance with someone you didn't even know
• maybe, years back
32. Who do you really hate?
• i dont hate anyone
35. Ever liked someone you didn't have a chance with?
• YES!
36. You lonely right now?
• not really
37. What time is it now?
• 12:00
With however long it took you to complete this, post as "my 15 minute survey"

31 questions

1. Do you like cheese?
 yep

2. Are you a chainsmoker?
 average of 5 sticks per day

3. Your favorite song?
 a lot!!!

4. Do you get nervous before doctor appointments?
 not really..

5. What do you think of hotdogs?
 Zach's favorite

6. Favorite Christmas song?
 hmmmm....cant think of any..

7. What do you prefer to drink in the morning
 cold water

8. Favorite super-hero?
 my DAD!

9. Favorite hobby?
 taking pics

10. Secret weapon to get the opposite sex?
 hmmmm...its secret right?

11. What’s one trait you hate about yourself?
 too forgiving

12. Name 3 thoughts at this exact moment
 Pinky - her super secret revealed
 my fence, to repair it
 trip to Cebu - when to go

13. What 3 things you bought yesterday?
 baby stuff for Pinky's newly born son

14. Name 3 drinks you regularly drink?
 water, water, water

15. Favorite place?
 my room, my solace!

16. Where would you like to go?
 to Heaven so i can talk to GOD face to face...

17. What color of shirt are you wearing?
 blue gray - my uniform

18. Can you whistle?
 yes

19. Favorite color/s?
 white, black...earth colors...

20. Would you like to be a pirate?
 where's the loot?

21. Favorite girl's name?
 jubang...harharhar

22. Favorite boy's name?
 ZACH...wanted to name him alessandro Zach...

23. What's in your pocket right now?
 none...

24. Last thing that made you laugh?
 Kirk..when we went to videoke bar

25. Worst injury you've ever had?
 injuries of the heart...lol

26. How many computers do you have in your house?
 1 only

27. Does someone have a crush on you?
 YOU!!!

28. What is your favorite book?
 A lot...i like erma bombeck and amy tan's humor the most...

29. What is your favorite candy?
 KOPIKO..im cheap

30. What were you doing 12 AM last night?
 snoring...

31. What is the first thing you thought of when u woke up?
 cook food, load laundry..i woke up pretty early today...5am

TEN PEOPLE

Name 10 people you can think of right off the top of your head. Don't read the questions underneath until you write the names of all 10 people. This is a lot funnier if you actually randomly list the names first.. No cheating:
1.Zach
2.Mom
3.Jonathan
4.Kirk the Jerk
5.Bill
6.Garrett
7.Angie
8.Faye
9.Jerome
10.Philip

DONT LOOK AHEAD UNLESS U FILLED UP THE TOP!!!
1.How did you meet #9?
Answer: College
2. Do you have a crush on anyone up there?
Answer: Hmmmm..crush?? I dont know...
3.What would you do if you hadn't met number 1?
Answer: I cant IMAGINE!
4. What would you do if 6 and 2 were going out?
Answer: I'd FREAK OUT!
5. How did you meet number 8?
Answer: We were classmates...
6. Is 2 one of your best persons?
Answer: Yes...Super MOM
7. Whose number 9's best friend(s)?
Answer: Ask him not ME!
8. Have you ever dated number 1?
Answer: Always...
9. Do you miss number 10?
Answer: EIWWWWW!
10.what do u think of number 6?
Answer: I cant tell you!
11.what do you think of number 7?
Answer: My BFF
12. who does number 3 like?
Answer: ME!!!
13. Have you ever been inside number 8's house?
Answer: Yes,when she was still here...
14. How did you meet number 5?
Answer: Bearshare..
15. Ever been in the same bed as any of the numbers?
Answer: Hmmm..yes, but wont tell you who...lol
16. Do you trust these people?
Answer: Yes, most of them...
17. would you date no. 5?
Answer: He is too costly to date!!!
18. Love them all?
Answer: Loved some of them yesterday, love some of them today, will love some of them tomorrow!!!!