Wednesday, January 21, 2009

This crazy thing called.....................SHIT!






My out-of-town vacations are always well planned. Prior to my booking, I have already confirmed schedules of the people I plan to meet, set them up to fit my itinerary. For my latest Manila trip, it was already planned months before, and I have been calling each one of my friends to set up "appointments" with them. I had to make sure that I had ample time allotted for each group so that my trip would be full - (read: no dull moment)..that's why, I had a longer break this time, I booked for 5 days in my favorite hotel. Made sure I got the first flight in, and the last flight out to maximize my time.

My first day was a surprise, Yman - my best-friend for 5 years met me up earlier than scheduled. He went to my hotel at 3pm when we were supposed to meet after dinner. So we went to the nearest mall and bought us some booze...Tequila Cuervo Gold...We drank it while we waited for others...Came Justin around dinner time, followed by Ping...

After the bottle of tequila, we bought Red Horse for "washing"...I didnt drink much of the beer though since I promised myself to slow down on it this 2009...( belly problems...u know) We then went to a bar called Socialites down Remedios st...we just had few bottles there and coffee ( Yman was wasted at this time)...then we went to Chowking for some hot noodles...that was it for my first night..great company and great time...

My second day was mixed up...Maya who was supposed to stay with me for the night ( and which was supposed to be just a night of catching up with her) cancelled and told me she'd come the next day, so since I had no other plans for the day, I decided to see people at my head office...there we planned to go out and of course had to ask the very person I was so excited to see and hang out with. He said yes to my invitation, in fact, he even told me that he didnt file for an overtime which was like saying " see, Im doing this for you.."...the plan was set, we were to meet at TopGrill just located at the back of the building where our head office was....I was with Keren for dinner then we just waited for others to follow. Viel was the first one to arrive, then followed by Karl and Majid...This Majid guy is a lifesaver for me, he was funny...and just the right person to be with when tension rises up. The night passed by without me noticing "his" absence when he texted and confirmed that he cant really come for shit reasons...Of course, I got hurt deep inside, but I didnt show it since the people I was with that time are new acquaintances....In fact, I was convincing myself that it wasnt planned at all and I shouldnt be expecting anything coz my schedule with him was really Friday...I had great company that night, signing in to my hotel at 330am...

Then third day came, the biggest day for me...I waited for Maya who took forever to arrive. I didnt confirm anymore who was coming or not coz I really expected that this was already set even before I came to Manila. Maya arrived at 4pm, then we hurriedly went to the Head Office...the same people I was with last night confirmed attendance, then while waiting for others to wrap up their respective errands at the office, I learned that "he" had other plans....This really got me...He knew that I was there to see him and I made it known to him. In fact, in one of our talks prior to my trip, he also told me that he was excited to see me...I didnt have the guts to ask him again, so I gave him the cold shoulder..( I guess, thats just how women reacts when disappointed)This was another equally great night for me, we had tequila, lambanog ( local booze) and beer...We just hung out in my hotel room...The last person to follow was Sir Chris, "his" supervisor....that was when I thought maybe, Sir Chris could convince him to come over....but he wasnt answering the calls. I then thought, what the heck, I should pester him now while I am still under the influence of the booze ( excuses! excuses! excuses!)...To my dismay, he was rejecting all my calls....and then he texted me hurtful words..telling me that I dont have the right to get angry at him sicne he already gave his explanation on the first night he didnt show up....and it puzzled me...Why did he react that way? Why was he so angry at me? And what did I say to make him say that?

With the disappointment and hurt all combined, I broke down....really broke down. I had to cry in the restroom since my bed was crowded with people...and most of them were already sleeping...I had the chance to talk to Majid and Maya one after the other, but still it didnt answer the nagging questions in my mind. Who did he talk to while I was there and told him that I said so many bad things about him? And why didnt he confront me earlier? Why took the risk of losing everything and timed it when I was there to visit him? God, I was ont he verge of going wherever he was at that moment....just to slap him hard...but hey, I got me thinking, who does he think he is anyway?

I never slept at all...morning came and I woke everybody up, asking them if they have talked to "him" by chance and told him anything that could make him react that way...everybody denied everything..and I believed them...there's only one person in my mind who I know she is capable of doing it to me...and while talking to Karl about it, the picture was getting clearer. I couldnt understand why people go such lengths of putting down others just not to be outshone...I know they are close, and I know the girl always get jealous when Im getting close to "her" friends...in fact, she wants everything that I have, she wants everything that I give to other people. Thats how envious she is...I got close to her friends than she ever was and that she couldnt take, so what she does and create conflicts between people. And this was a classic example of how mean she could be...Of course, Im still hurt, not by him but by her also...They have topped with sadness the great vacation that I had...and all i could do is charge it to experience.

One thing I learned though is that the world is still so big for me, there are far greater people than the people I admire...they are just waiting for me to say "hi" to them..and Im so blessed to having met these new friends in my life...They make me laugh, they make life so beautiful....Im sure we will have more fun in the coming days...and I hope it will be here where I live...God Bless Karl, Maya, Keren, Viel, Chris, Glady, Sherwin, Yman, Ping, Justin, Aleli and Majid...I love you guys!