With the impending closure of my branch, I found myself worrying a lot. I have never-ending options that I ponder upon, yet all of those options seem not to suit best for my future...and of course with Zach to think about, I think Im getting no nearer it...
I want to cry a lot of times, but my eyes are so dry...I want to scream for help but my mouth seem to shut all the more. I feel helpless, I feel Im drowning in the pool of insecurities, yet I have to be strong for other people.
I just learned the bad condition of my niece, yet she showed no signs of worry and anxiety...and to think that her plight is worse than mine, so who am I to complain?
My friends are perplexed with my recent behavior, I dont call them, I dont communicate at all...they send me text messages, they send me emails, they send me comments on my FS, but I have replied to no one....I guess this is my defense mechanism, I am best at keeping my worries....but this is not really who I am...so Im LOST!
I dont really know now what I want, I dont even know what to do next..I have opened myself to a lot of possibilities, yet my heart is holding back...to something I cant have...I am LOST...really LOST...could you please show me the way?
