I finally found time to commune with myself in a very different way. Well, the time was accidentally set due to my leg cramps, so I had to call in sick and thought of finally doing my soul-searching-mind-penetrating-body-relaxing kind of way...
I woke up the usual time that Zach is with me...I made breakfast..( the easiest one), sent him off the gate to his waiting father and I went back to my room...got the book, New Moon ( oh well, im behind, who cares?), read few chapters when my eyes suddenly wanted to close, so i went to sleep...
I woke up with a flicker of hope, (from the depression im dealing with since Monday this week)...coz of a very nice dream...but thats a secret for now ok? Eventually, after gazing at my ceiling for awhile, i decided to make breakfast for myself and write email to someone...i originally planned to spend my time home cleaning and beautify it again, but the lazy bones in me stopped me from doing that, so i just played Vacation Mogul and run through pages in the book alternately...between reading and playing, i realized, i havent written my commitment for this year...so here it is:
1. More vacation destinations this year - up north and out...hopefully with good friends in tow..
2. More books - I have started my Twilight saga series, it can be finished in a huff, no problem with that, but have to buy more books if i want to stimulate my brains again...i have to meet new authors, just bought Cecelia Ahern's "There's no place like here"..hopefully, i can buy her other books...
3. More time with Zach - play boardgames( coz he already threatened me to sell them if i dont play with him), cuddle more under the sheets, prepare healthier food for him, ride airplane with him again and bring him up north...
4. Be more patient - with people who are slow, who are stupid, who are immature, irresponsible and who are amoral....coz patience is one virtue im short of!
5. QUIT SMOKING - I envy one friend in FB when he quit 5 months ago and has been nicotine-free since then...I will do it NOW...not later!
6. SAVE - my mom is dead set on this, she wants me to save so that i can take care of myself in the future, which is very practical but this one is harder than quit smoking...so i will really need a helluva lot of discipline on this one. I should now bury my cards to where i couldnt find them, 1 down, 4 to go on this.
7. EXERCISE - no excuse for adding more pounds sideways on the belly, cut on beer and carbs, then stretch some muscles....i guess this one should top the list!
8. Be more appreciative - of little things....coz those things matter most!
9. RECONNECT - TOUCH BASE - with people i care about, people i miss, people i want to meet, people who matter to me!
10. LOVE, LOVE, LOVE - I want to love again...i want to feel that electrifying notch on the stomach when someone holds my hand or someone whispers something to me..i want to see the sparkle in my eyes whenever that special someone's name is mentioned...i want to make my heart pump more blood, that is! It always feel good to be in love, and I want to feel good this year...so good luck to me!
There you have it, my commitment written in my heart, with my blood sealing it....Hope my friends could lend a hand to make these things happen...Its a new decade in the new millennium....39 years of my life has passed...im nearing my 40...another decade sealing its glory...My 2010 will be a better one, that I vow to make!
Amen!
